Foiled again...ut not for long...Love Lasts Like Tupperware

Dear BH: (please excuse my need to have a powerful conversation with you - Everyman who ever jilted me...you're good foil, Bruce!wink wink)

If only you new the truth
my love went south
American WoMAN
get away
Pain brings gain
the skin cannot touch
the night of a thousand clowns
so lightly teched

you were mine
once
upon a time
a fairy tale
for me
at least

never knot
no you were not
mine
no
no one could own you
free like the bird
the mighty St Ignace wind
blew you away
from me
American cousin

when i set you free
you never returned
my calls
or
turtle screams
nothing to reclaim
damn fate
to face
that night

you're right
as rainmaker
my mini man diety
yet
your will
was not set
in my pilaster soul

no one has to question
or separate
this age of senile sensibilities
and old friend's question
did those
sensen fruitellas and time
those cerebral imprints
mind
over matter
sinking in the stinking sand
flowed through fingers
daisies tear
a blow to my subtle
nonexistent
ego

dust in the wind
parsley sage rosemary
and what?
my eyes tear up
now now
i didnt want to
walk away
in this way, you know
i have not
yet
you are one
to question me
and my ordinance
money well spent

you are pedestalled
i am peripheralized
forever
microcosmed
and were it not for
and that damn 20 you throw
my way
forget it
shove it
yankee dollar
worth shit now
monopolizers
burn my tail feathers
i want you
you idiot

i take leave
of my divine senses
in disguist
scrooge was nicer to belle
if you ever read
or saw
Dickens...Charles?
you little dickens
what d'ya expect?
i had great expectations
for you and me
never to be
ok

you made me
all too much
like a mini you
so overwhelming
to live up to
that pal of mine
now you know
though
dont you?
how loved
you are
and me like a beached
and bleached pig
whale
you breached my
divinity seek
let me know
your true feelings
were not ours
missing peace

you had other plans
from the beginning
didn't you?
why didnt you tell me
into the 2nd year of 5 known
of our go around
carousel
then?

i melted away pounds
personality dwindled
pig feeder trough
pig can fly
i couldnt fly
in the face
of the ancient matter
i had to deal
with
cards
held by
old hands
holders
no regrets
right?

you did it
I'm so glad
really!
you made
yourself
something
and
got the prize
please
dont rub it in my face
unless
you mean it

hope you are happy
really i do
you never wanted me
so
I let you go
i'll get over it
in maybe 30 years or so


waiting upon the shelf
waiting and waiting
listless, lustless
lifeless
wonderlust got
the better of me
i escaped north
of 60
almost that now

i must ask
why did i have
such a short
shelflife
expired 1979 or so?


what was it really
that wasnt
good for you?
you missed me
me you never knew

to the dry bones
nothing to drink
parched throat
deserted
call the marines
to
tattoo you
i wanted the
i dos
i didnt get

you had other plans
i knew nothing about
so you led me
to where i could
go bye bye baby
good trick

and you went on and on
i was never in the big pic
your world
had been planned
i was a diversion
a 5 year plan?
starbaby
no more
wayward waiting
seaside
sailor's bait

my wish
if you could wash up
upon my shore
i would take you in
to be mine
once more

hah!
you never had
me in mind
did you?

which probably
scares
the
shit out of you
me too
doubling back
is
double trouble
I cannot take you back

but odd things happen
i keep an open mind
that sometime
all that i wanted
was more than needing
you
i had to mend you

but i know
this will never be
because what i want
never happens

and i did want you

not a major player
minor role
looking at you
the star
now
baby

committed now
and happily so
no need to fuel
your wrath
i respect
your feelings
i didnt want to hear
or bear
bad news
i wanted for you
to be happy

i just cant get around my head

you found me a joke
always
or just a throw away
gf
something can be said
for understanding
you
i never did
why not?

i just want you to know
love doesnt die
even though i did
divinity rejected
you
know
naive and stupid
me to you
the future
would be told
foretold
i wish!
I could never
conceive
of a world
without you
back then

like that dead fish
washed up
upon the shore
remembrance
past

did you hate me so
did i deserve
this fate
this pain
this unhigh stone
round my pearlized
neck
sorry
weighed down
by ruby's gloom
and money and fame
didnt hurt either
did it?

jajo 7 mar 09

--- In mikeswritingworkshop@yahoogroups.com, "Bruce Hamilton" wrote:
>
> YOUR CHANGE
> Your change you neglected to take,
> yet now for propriety's sake
> I hand you this twenty
> while hoping that plenty
> of memory rules how you quake.
>
> Senility forever lingers. -- bh
>