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Friday, January 16, 2009
Being Spiritually Molested By Bad Music All The Time
Subsequently I knew this topic would grab bar your attention! haha! Oh my goshen! It really is that, I dont like the crap in my face. How to change rearrange the picture. I want out. I want a new kinder version reality. Doesnt Microsoft have that yet? Man...I need a holiday...crap!
Devastating Time Re-Evolving Self
What happens when we are stuck in the creative rut or the author's "dry spell"? How can we reboot that and come out the other end with something which is satisfactory to the ever-expanding creative desires of the soul?
What changes our souls? What makes us abandon that which we thought were? Do you have a self-image? Most do, some don't. Do artists have a self-image. Most do. Because they have to use that image to "sell" their art. To promote their art "product".
What if the "self" of the artist is shook up to the point of the artist questioning to a large degree "who they are"? The self-examination seems like a control mechanism, and unlike the artist, somewhat limiting an artist's concept of "self".
The art product is really the
It is like this; I hate doing dishes. I loathe doing dishes! It is a necessary thing to do, if I want to eat the next meal, but it is so damn time consuming. It takes me away from what I want to really do, write, create, think about my next visual experience, and whatever other joyous things I love to do. But you know it is sweat equity. All this "pain" brings gain. We are refined in the furnace. Our sweat labour promotes further refinement. Really? How? How does my doing dishes make me a better artist?
Well for one thing, I get to think about art when I am doing dishes unless I am multi-tasking, or multi-braining, thinking of too-too much at once. Then that is just OVERLOAD! Perhaps that is what happened to me, when I let myself become too vulnerable to excess stimuli. The gurus idea of "no thyself" means deny the multi-sensory for the internal sensory to exist. The 3 hr tour in the am. is all good, as is the lingering bath with closed eyes and aromatherapy. I am a big nose person. I think I could make zillions smelling fish. I dont know if this is genetic, but I certainly know the power of a good nose. It just makes me think, maybe my senses are just too good, and make things so overloaded as to crash, weaken, desensitize.
Let's face it, the human can only handle so much then the SHOCK effect take effect.
It isnt pretty to see a human coming down from overload. It is not the way it should be, life needs more or less fine tuning, and the individual knows what's best for the best personal fufillment. No wonder. How could I give you anything when I had nothing left to give after being overloaded with sensitory stimuli of unknown worlds. Maybe the otherworldly worlds would be too much for our unit design. Maybe those worlds need to slowly open, refinedly so by those skilled in the Opening the Doors of Perception (got to read that Adolf Huxley book).
You never jump through hoops for me! Well when you provide the means and the ends as an artist you are kind of short-changed because you give more than you take. You can give and give and give til you are blue in the face and nobody will appreciate it until it is taken away. Thus the plight of the mothering instinct. I have to do this, I have to do that. We are our "what we think we are and have to dos". What if I just didnt do what I normally do each day. As a provider I would get arrested. I have a serious job to do, that is not recognized or commensurated in anyway whatsoever. Especially that "taken for granted" feeling I get so often. Crap! When can I say what I am, mean what I say and be who I am without the feeling I am swamped with resposnibility beyond my control. Basically I must find time to find my self again. You can give endlessly to others who do not care, and do not want to help you when that time arrives. It is all overwhelming. I need to step off this train. I need help, someone to take away the burden of being a machine. I need to feel that what I do has meaning, purpose and that I can actually change negative events into positive events. So far, without help, this is impossible. Help is not out there in the way I want it to be, so this will mean I will have to be proactive AND MAKE GOOD THINGS HAPPEN if it kills me! Damn!
What changes our souls? What makes us abandon that which we thought were? Do you have a self-image? Most do, some don't. Do artists have a self-image. Most do. Because they have to use that image to "sell" their art. To promote their art "product".
What if the "self" of the artist is shook up to the point of the artist questioning to a large degree "who they are"? The self-examination seems like a control mechanism, and unlike the artist, somewhat limiting an artist's concept of "self".
The art product is really the
It is like this; I hate doing dishes. I loathe doing dishes! It is a necessary thing to do, if I want to eat the next meal, but it is so damn time consuming. It takes me away from what I want to really do, write, create, think about my next visual experience, and whatever other joyous things I love to do. But you know it is sweat equity. All this "pain" brings gain. We are refined in the furnace. Our sweat labour promotes further refinement. Really? How? How does my doing dishes make me a better artist?
Well for one thing, I get to think about art when I am doing dishes unless I am multi-tasking, or multi-braining, thinking of too-too much at once. Then that is just OVERLOAD! Perhaps that is what happened to me, when I let myself become too vulnerable to excess stimuli. The gurus idea of "no thyself" means deny the multi-sensory for the internal sensory to exist. The 3 hr tour in the am. is all good, as is the lingering bath with closed eyes and aromatherapy. I am a big nose person. I think I could make zillions smelling fish. I dont know if this is genetic, but I certainly know the power of a good nose. It just makes me think, maybe my senses are just too good, and make things so overloaded as to crash, weaken, desensitize.
Let's face it, the human can only handle so much then the SHOCK effect take effect.
It isnt pretty to see a human coming down from overload. It is not the way it should be, life needs more or less fine tuning, and the individual knows what's best for the best personal fufillment. No wonder. How could I give you anything when I had nothing left to give after being overloaded with sensitory stimuli of unknown worlds. Maybe the otherworldly worlds would be too much for our unit design. Maybe those worlds need to slowly open, refinedly so by those skilled in the Opening the Doors of Perception (got to read that Adolf Huxley book).
You never jump through hoops for me! Well when you provide the means and the ends as an artist you are kind of short-changed because you give more than you take. You can give and give and give til you are blue in the face and nobody will appreciate it until it is taken away. Thus the plight of the mothering instinct. I have to do this, I have to do that. We are our "what we think we are and have to dos". What if I just didnt do what I normally do each day. As a provider I would get arrested. I have a serious job to do, that is not recognized or commensurated in anyway whatsoever. Especially that "taken for granted" feeling I get so often. Crap! When can I say what I am, mean what I say and be who I am without the feeling I am swamped with resposnibility beyond my control. Basically I must find time to find my self again. You can give endlessly to others who do not care, and do not want to help you when that time arrives. It is all overwhelming. I need to step off this train. I need help, someone to take away the burden of being a machine. I need to feel that what I do has meaning, purpose and that I can actually change negative events into positive events. So far, without help, this is impossible. Help is not out there in the way I want it to be, so this will mean I will have to be proactive AND MAKE GOOD THINGS HAPPEN if it kills me! Damn!
can we control the Creative Process?
Control is not very creative. Control is limiting. Creativity is UNLIMITED. We dont want to fool ourselves, CREATIVITY is borrowed from our INTERNAL CREATOR. Yes, we carry the LIFE FORCE CREATOR, that eternal entity (God) within us, to barf forward all that within. All that we have known, all those memories, known and unknown.
BF? Bring Forward, Barf Forward, you know, regurgitate. We regurg all that we are, all that we learn, all that we want, need, etc. We got to get it out, we got to let it flow, and IT wants OUT. All that we are and keep within eventually will OUT. That creative thing. We want to get it out of our beings for some reason. We just don't sit on it. Sit on it! haha!
Sitting on it, or Control, is like being constipated. Our bodies want to eliminate old product. We want to continue...and discard. We are refining ourselves. What we want to refine, creatively, we have that ability. We get to choose between AN INFINITE AMOUNT OF POSSIBLE VARIABLES what we want to create or have and hold if only momentary as in a Brief History of Time. All too briefly, considering the dimentional dynamics of deep space. It is huge out there, isn't it, yet it isnt big enough to explain how similar everything is, how we have all these synchronicities happening (studying this see my articles of Synchronicity), similarities, sharing, and again those many 6 degrees of seperation which make us all experience a similar construct or gestalt or collective unconscious. You see an apple similar to me. I may experience from my perspective and experience that apple a slightly bit different. But that is ok! We need those variations of sameness (the apple) in order to appreciate the expanding universe and the various pathways to the inifinite. Does this make sense?
BF? Bring Forward, Barf Forward, you know, regurgitate. We regurg all that we are, all that we learn, all that we want, need, etc. We got to get it out, we got to let it flow, and IT wants OUT. All that we are and keep within eventually will OUT. That creative thing. We want to get it out of our beings for some reason. We just don't sit on it. Sit on it! haha!
Sitting on it, or Control, is like being constipated. Our bodies want to eliminate old product. We want to continue...and discard. We are refining ourselves. What we want to refine, creatively, we have that ability. We get to choose between AN INFINITE AMOUNT OF POSSIBLE VARIABLES what we want to create or have and hold if only momentary as in a Brief History of Time. All too briefly, considering the dimentional dynamics of deep space. It is huge out there, isn't it, yet it isnt big enough to explain how similar everything is, how we have all these synchronicities happening (studying this see my articles of Synchronicity), similarities, sharing, and again those many 6 degrees of seperation which make us all experience a similar construct or gestalt or collective unconscious. You see an apple similar to me. I may experience from my perspective and experience that apple a slightly bit different. But that is ok! We need those variations of sameness (the apple) in order to appreciate the expanding universe and the various pathways to the inifinite. Does this make sense?
The Created Are The Creators Now
Internal dynamcis and outward thrust of those creative forces of the original (was there EVER a beginning) concerns me. We The Created are The Creators NOW!
Our destiny is to create (or believe we create unless all predetermined). Pathways. Rivers. Estuaries. Left or Right. Directional. So direction is really the CREATIVE force...the impetus, THE ENERGY OF THE CREATIVE DIRECTION by the DIRECTOR GOD.
Oh vey, this is mind-boggling. Let's just go with the flow. Sometimes I feel I just HAVE TO CREATE? Is THIS a causal from STATIC QUO? Things to samey make me feel homey-stuck in a rut. AND bored! BORED? REAL CREATIVE ARTISTS DONT GET BORED 'cause they know how the methods of CREATIVE IMPETUS OR CREATIVE LIFE FORCE to flow into the next stream needed for FULL CREATIVE EXPRESSION?
Certainly, we are going to limit or LIMITLESSNESS (synchronicity here hearing Dr. Psychedelic)...classic! We all know that..I am borrowing for MY CREATIVE IMPETUS. How is THIS BORROWING of OTHERS CREATIVE IMPETUS and CREATIVE STATE, CREATIVE DESIGN, truly a CREATIVE CREATION? A "UNIQUE NEW YORK" EXPERIENCE? TRULY NEW? I DONT THINK SO...SO ALL CREATIVE ENDEAVOURS ARE RECHANNELLED CONCEPTS, OR VARIABLES OF THE ORIGINAL CREATIVE PROCESS.
Now that we realize ALL CREATIVE ART is SYNTHESIZED because it is an EXTERNAL reproduction of the NASCENT INTERNAL CREATOR, that NEW, ETERNAL BEING OR ENTITY COMMONLY KNOWN AS GOD, we have realized WE ARE CARING THIS INTERNAL ENTITY (GOD) WITHIN THROUGHOUT AND WITHOUT CONSTANT AND NONCONSTANT REALMS OF CHANGE AND SAMENESS.
MIND-BOGGLING AGAIN. REGROUP...
Maybe...hold onto that thought for a moment. How long can we hold onto anything. But you do believe there is a constant, somewhere in the Universe, and this constant could be...?God! This is just my rutting, I can only say I cant change what I am INTRINSICALLY, OR CAN i?
HMMMMMMMM. MORE on this later....
Our destiny is to create (or believe we create unless all predetermined). Pathways. Rivers. Estuaries. Left or Right. Directional. So direction is really the CREATIVE force...the impetus, THE ENERGY OF THE CREATIVE DIRECTION by the DIRECTOR GOD.
Oh vey, this is mind-boggling. Let's just go with the flow. Sometimes I feel I just HAVE TO CREATE? Is THIS a causal from STATIC QUO? Things to samey make me feel homey-stuck in a rut. AND bored! BORED? REAL CREATIVE ARTISTS DONT GET BORED 'cause they know how the methods of CREATIVE IMPETUS OR CREATIVE LIFE FORCE to flow into the next stream needed for FULL CREATIVE EXPRESSION?
Certainly, we are going to limit or LIMITLESSNESS (synchronicity here hearing Dr. Psychedelic)...classic! We all know that..I am borrowing for MY CREATIVE IMPETUS. How is THIS BORROWING of OTHERS CREATIVE IMPETUS and CREATIVE STATE, CREATIVE DESIGN, truly a CREATIVE CREATION? A "UNIQUE NEW YORK" EXPERIENCE? TRULY NEW? I DONT THINK SO...SO ALL CREATIVE ENDEAVOURS ARE RECHANNELLED CONCEPTS, OR VARIABLES OF THE ORIGINAL CREATIVE PROCESS.
Now that we realize ALL CREATIVE ART is SYNTHESIZED because it is an EXTERNAL reproduction of the NASCENT INTERNAL CREATOR, that NEW, ETERNAL BEING OR ENTITY COMMONLY KNOWN AS GOD, we have realized WE ARE CARING THIS INTERNAL ENTITY (GOD) WITHIN THROUGHOUT AND WITHOUT CONSTANT AND NONCONSTANT REALMS OF CHANGE AND SAMENESS.
MIND-BOGGLING AGAIN. REGROUP...
Maybe...hold onto that thought for a moment. How long can we hold onto anything. But you do believe there is a constant, somewhere in the Universe, and this constant could be...?God! This is just my rutting, I can only say I cant change what I am INTRINSICALLY, OR CAN i?
HMMMMMMMM. MORE on this later....
Reality Is It Real If It Is Manipulated by Creative Artists
You know I am going to, as far as possible, tell the truth. The bear face facts. Not going to pretty them up, unless I have that power to recreate reality in the way I WANT IT TO GO (I guess I do).
AN ASIDE AT ITO'S BAR;
At this point I would have to ask; am I doing anybody any good. If Artists are gods then they must be accountable to the denizens of masses they will effect eventually and into the future, with all the add-on conditions associated with that manipulation. It is not much different from a new discover by an inventor. Artists must somehow say either "my art if it effects your reality, take a bromo because I am not signing ANY WAIVERS!
Artists can. Certainly can. Change the basics. The way the REALITY pattern was set up. Changing REALITY into other than that for the greater good. But Artists are basically NOT MORALISTS or CARE-ISTS, I mean, let's get real, most art is not a thought process it is a feeling process. Take all BEAUX ARTS, I mean good art, well good to me. It is very emotive of emotion (duh). Yes, it is, it conveys the artist's (and artists) inner sanctum, and without fanfare of self-doubt and held-back creative so that morales can discern whether or not this ART HAS IMPACT on the reality and future RENDERINGS of human's world. Collective Unconscious too may effect this big picture by the artist dipping painted surfaces and their meanings.
This will be another topic later as I see I am OFF TOPIC....
So we can perfect reality to a point. But then again, isn't reality something we should leave alone?
Theoretically, what is cannot change intrinsically. What we, as artists are toying with is the "plastic means", and probably the plastic means are not that meaningful as far as THE BIG PICTURE is concerned. Do you know how an artist could toy with the "plastic means of creativity" to create a new world to the point of over-riding reality. Wow...that means reality is not set in stone, not really. But how can this be proven. We think things are as they are. And we might even think we change things, how then will we or when will we understand and know the difference? It is very convulted right now for me to conceive. Early morning as it is right now.
Theoretical, not conclusive....back in a minute...got to grab a coffee for hub in back room. (I told him no buggy til after 8:30...it is me time to write...damn it!)...but I understand coffee is good for you...after I have my prayer juice (yes I pray the Lord's Prayer while drinking my first drink in a.m. It sets the day up right and I have yet to do this...let's see if this will help the reality to go the way it should go..proceeding along those paths of righteousness(yikes what if this doesnt help) but I found it most certainly does, connecting with the infinite powers that be...I do believe in those powers, some may not, as they say in French "Viva La Difference!"....soon more...give me a break...5 for 50 ale (too early!)...thanks!
AN ASIDE AT ITO'S BAR;
At this point I would have to ask; am I doing anybody any good. If Artists are gods then they must be accountable to the denizens of masses they will effect eventually and into the future, with all the add-on conditions associated with that manipulation. It is not much different from a new discover by an inventor. Artists must somehow say either "my art if it effects your reality, take a bromo because I am not signing ANY WAIVERS!
Artists can. Certainly can. Change the basics. The way the REALITY pattern was set up. Changing REALITY into other than that for the greater good. But Artists are basically NOT MORALISTS or CARE-ISTS, I mean, let's get real, most art is not a thought process it is a feeling process. Take all BEAUX ARTS, I mean good art, well good to me. It is very emotive of emotion (duh). Yes, it is, it conveys the artist's (and artists) inner sanctum, and without fanfare of self-doubt and held-back creative so that morales can discern whether or not this ART HAS IMPACT on the reality and future RENDERINGS of human's world. Collective Unconscious too may effect this big picture by the artist dipping painted surfaces and their meanings.
This will be another topic later as I see I am OFF TOPIC....
So we can perfect reality to a point. But then again, isn't reality something we should leave alone?
Theoretically, what is cannot change intrinsically. What we, as artists are toying with is the "plastic means", and probably the plastic means are not that meaningful as far as THE BIG PICTURE is concerned. Do you know how an artist could toy with the "plastic means of creativity" to create a new world to the point of over-riding reality. Wow...that means reality is not set in stone, not really. But how can this be proven. We think things are as they are. And we might even think we change things, how then will we or when will we understand and know the difference? It is very convulted right now for me to conceive. Early morning as it is right now.
Theoretical, not conclusive....back in a minute...got to grab a coffee for hub in back room. (I told him no buggy til after 8:30...it is me time to write...damn it!)...but I understand coffee is good for you...after I have my prayer juice (yes I pray the Lord's Prayer while drinking my first drink in a.m. It sets the day up right and I have yet to do this...let's see if this will help the reality to go the way it should go..proceeding along those paths of righteousness(yikes what if this doesnt help) but I found it most certainly does, connecting with the infinite powers that be...I do believe in those powers, some may not, as they say in French "Viva La Difference!"....soon more...give me a break...5 for 50 ale (too early!)...thanks!
Thursday, January 15, 2009
testing systems for Democracy
You use test systems, protocols, etc? Why not for democracy? How could these be implemented? Are they sustainable? Is democracy sustainable?
Certainly I have existed in places were mob rule worked over the "freedom of the indidual". Where the individual was so destroyed, debunked and demolished as to to leave nothing left at all. Devastating destructive mode of mob rule. Surprise I am alived to talk about it? Me too.
It is amazing how it happened. The demoralizing first. Making the person shunned by rumour, insult, jeers, leers and gossip. It didnt take long for the rumour mill to start churning Catherine's wheel. The martrydom of myself continued and I became more convicted of my goal and destiny to find those hidden gems of truth hidden within our beloved govenmentally procedure. Victimization is not a fun game for the victimized. It seems the social shunning, the manipulation of events, the utter deception is allowed to flourish without anyone defending truth or individual rights.
Mob scenes are not pretty, and have way too much influence in our democratic lives.
Gossip thank goshen is outlawed in some businesses. No watercooler talk. Say something nice about someone or forget it. Negativity can and will destroy us all.
Do something nice today. Do not tolerate lies spread about people. This gossip is made to politisize a person usually for social or monetary gain by the gossipee. Negative words (gossip) about a person can really cause a ripcord of dissent and spiralling out of control destruction. I just don't know how anyone can think good can come from bad talk about someone.
Truth on the other hand says "just the facts, mam". I hope that after all is said and done, I will not be manipulated politically anymore. Seriously, I am really "once bit, twice shy" it will be difficult to trust strangers. It will be difficult to trust persons who deceived me. Some people have such a cold cold heart, they were hurt and now hurt others destroying other's innocence too. And for what purpose? To make politically deceive others for gain.
One remedy for this venom? Realtime webcams without the ability to change the image. Proof of Innocence for the innocent. No lapse, no tampering with the image.
someday, truth will indeed prevail and justice will promote it. How can ever believe anything I am told again...devastatingly...unbelievable! But remediable!
Certainly I have existed in places were mob rule worked over the "freedom of the indidual". Where the individual was so destroyed, debunked and demolished as to to leave nothing left at all. Devastating destructive mode of mob rule. Surprise I am alived to talk about it? Me too.
It is amazing how it happened. The demoralizing first. Making the person shunned by rumour, insult, jeers, leers and gossip. It didnt take long for the rumour mill to start churning Catherine's wheel. The martrydom of myself continued and I became more convicted of my goal and destiny to find those hidden gems of truth hidden within our beloved govenmentally procedure. Victimization is not a fun game for the victimized. It seems the social shunning, the manipulation of events, the utter deception is allowed to flourish without anyone defending truth or individual rights.
Mob scenes are not pretty, and have way too much influence in our democratic lives.
Gossip thank goshen is outlawed in some businesses. No watercooler talk. Say something nice about someone or forget it. Negativity can and will destroy us all.
Do something nice today. Do not tolerate lies spread about people. This gossip is made to politisize a person usually for social or monetary gain by the gossipee. Negative words (gossip) about a person can really cause a ripcord of dissent and spiralling out of control destruction. I just don't know how anyone can think good can come from bad talk about someone.
Truth on the other hand says "just the facts, mam". I hope that after all is said and done, I will not be manipulated politically anymore. Seriously, I am really "once bit, twice shy" it will be difficult to trust strangers. It will be difficult to trust persons who deceived me. Some people have such a cold cold heart, they were hurt and now hurt others destroying other's innocence too. And for what purpose? To make politically deceive others for gain.
One remedy for this venom? Realtime webcams without the ability to change the image. Proof of Innocence for the innocent. No lapse, no tampering with the image.
someday, truth will indeed prevail and justice will promote it. How can ever believe anything I am told again...devastatingly...unbelievable! But remediable!
Alert DO SOMETHING ABOUT Slime Molds In the Atmospheric Environment
We should report more often how we feel and when there are slime molds in my sink...Looks just like...slime from the movie Ghostbusters! Except clear not green (thank gosh)...what about reporting ill? Who would know? If this is a biochem attack or not? What if you have a migraine, or you are so dizzy or whateve..how would w know for sure, orif disease is deliberate, the high incidence of cancer? Could this also be biochem? If oil lead is destroying minds, breains, souls? If we are LOST? tHEY KNOWS IT WE DONT? hUH? wHO GIVES them the damn authority???shit i thought it was humans are number one all rest later...now it is huh? we are first individual entities are we not???. I feel devastated. I feel ripped off. Either by myself orAre you an antipropagandist...how did I get that moniker? (clinton did joke for morale,do you have any of that left?)lITTLE EXPENSIVE FOR A Jar of Goji juice..are yousaying all juice will be in glass by 2012. If the near miss asteroids dont get us first? Damn!My proirties ARE ALL WRONG..HELP ME PLEASE!!!
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