There is more to report on the Synchronistic front. Yesterday some special things happened to me. My son mentioned Peter Max the artist, if I knew of the artist because he knows someone who has some prints of his. I said yes! I had the book Yellow Submarine by Peter Max. As I was watching tv last evening, channel surfing as usual, I noted a show with Larry King and Bill Clinton speaking about Peter Max's retrospective! Also, another incident. A program on reaching Mt Everest after I had contacted Shambala ppl a Buddist retreat. Also it was more than synchronicity when I talked to masters online FB and told the master about seeing a vision upon awakening from a nap yesterday. I saw a white fuzzy cloud fog and then I saw a sitting Buddha sitting lotus position on a map. It was cartoonish and looked like Confusious (sp?) and another Buddha was than came through imposed from the othe Buhhda. There was a red hand on the bottom of this art as if a signature from the master. Odd this! I wonder if I was receiving from the sentients? I love it! It is so cool meditating. I sleep a lot cause I have a bad back and I need to strengthen, as I feel very weak with the unusal nature of my being. I worry about...something I dont know. I wish I didnt have to feel so much anxiety lately. My change of life is wierd and I think I know why we may be feeling anxiety. Something cosmic is going to happen or will happen in the near future. I have a theory that I am working on in regards to how to stop us going into a black hole. I am not kidding. It is about blue light energy and magnetics. It is heavy but I think we have unknown powers from times ago, maybe when the sun was different, or our dna was not split (was a circle)...i wish that I had the means to afford proper nutritionals.as I'd really like to be a herbologist.
February 23, 2009 5:36 AM
chiccoreal said...
Synchronistic events could be an indicator our galaxy is going into a black hole. This could explain why things are so hard to do lately. It is the SE (synchronistic events) that may be an indicator of the eventuality of this phenomena. I dont mean to freak anyone out. I think all the powerful minds in the world could get together. But if the next world is better, why worry about this world? Because we can. The creator has given us powers we have not yet realized or realized long ago when the world was different. Maybe the sun was a different energy that promoted rather than harmed man. Maybe our dna was a circle rather than a broken circle as it is now. Maybe with the ancient knowledge we could do something about this. I have something that we could do about this, a plan. But who would listen to me? Why would they? I certainly would be laughed at if I applied for a science grant. They really only wanted "yes" people (people who never question the status quo). We need to always question, this is good. It is in questioning that we find the answer and hopefully, arrive one day at the Truth.
February 23, 2009 5:45 AM
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Charactrization Workshop
Today you will play a 50 year old woman who is going (went) mad. You will tell all your friends you will be the prototypical menopausal woman without black cohosh. You will find yourself on the otherside of life and have continual flashbacks of the 60's and 70's. You will find your world more real there. You will take up Ikea fashions and books on Interior design from the 70's. You will find refuge in bygone days because today there is unstable electromagnetic flux which disrupts the temporal displacement (thanks Lost) and it is getting stronger. Or something like that. Hey that isnt characterization, that is reality. Ok lets make a less real scenario....
I really think any characterization you would offer me would be easier to do than my own existence in the here and now. Ok let's try a characterization I'd like, a real life scenario for a has-been dried up old prune hag. Lets think glamour for awhile. Ok, you are a ravishing beauty, star material, everyone melts when you enter a room. Or you are a street person, and everyone avoids your gaze. And everything in between. Again, the characterizations get down to a stereotype. What is needed here is some positive icons for a mad woman. A place where the shrivelled up brain can reboot, and can not shrinky dink anymore. (this statement is in response to the unusual Doctors show on tv. It was really contraversial. One guest doctor stated all menopausal women are "mad". There ovaries shrivel up to a peanut and hormones beome toxic, the brain shrinks and dries up. Shocking, and I said to myself "Why don't I shoot myself now?" At the same time I said this out loud, the female regular doctor on Doctors berated the guest male doctor. I said "Yeah, come on woman, fight for our rights" And she did! I was so happy about that! I feel like writing an email to her to say THANKS, Medicine Woman! Thank-god the regular female doctor commented upon the guest doctors mengelian statement and won the argument about no such thing as a "toxic" hormone(s). Man that was the first time I have ever seen a doctor actually uphold human rights. (please read my multi CPSO articles from circa l994 shooting incident). I started a group called ETOWME ETHICAL TREATMENT OF WOMEN EVERYWHERE and basically this group started because of sexist commercials on tv which started to make me feel ill after the subconsious messages kicked into the conscious mind, it was a real kicker. And yes, the commercials in question were pulled. Thank God! More documentation on this upon request. jajo
I really think any characterization you would offer me would be easier to do than my own existence in the here and now. Ok let's try a characterization I'd like, a real life scenario for a has-been dried up old prune hag. Lets think glamour for awhile. Ok, you are a ravishing beauty, star material, everyone melts when you enter a room. Or you are a street person, and everyone avoids your gaze. And everything in between. Again, the characterizations get down to a stereotype. What is needed here is some positive icons for a mad woman. A place where the shrivelled up brain can reboot, and can not shrinky dink anymore. (this statement is in response to the unusual Doctors show on tv. It was really contraversial. One guest doctor stated all menopausal women are "mad". There ovaries shrivel up to a peanut and hormones beome toxic, the brain shrinks and dries up. Shocking, and I said to myself "Why don't I shoot myself now?" At the same time I said this out loud, the female regular doctor on Doctors berated the guest male doctor. I said "Yeah, come on woman, fight for our rights" And she did! I was so happy about that! I feel like writing an email to her to say THANKS, Medicine Woman! Thank-god the regular female doctor commented upon the guest doctors mengelian statement and won the argument about no such thing as a "toxic" hormone(s). Man that was the first time I have ever seen a doctor actually uphold human rights. (please read my multi CPSO articles from circa l994 shooting incident). I started a group called ETOWME ETHICAL TREATMENT OF WOMEN EVERYWHERE and basically this group started because of sexist commercials on tv which started to make me feel ill after the subconsious messages kicked into the conscious mind, it was a real kicker. And yes, the commercials in question were pulled. Thank God! More documentation on this upon request. jajo
Wierd Moon...I knew it, and dreamt it was or has a multi dimensionality to it, as has Will
Published online 12 February 2009 | Nature | doi:10.1038/news.2009.100
News
The Moon reveals its weirder side
SELENE mission reports on gravity anomalies.
Katharine Sanderson
Gravity highs (red) and lows (blue) on the Moon (Lunar nearside right, farside left)ScienceResults from the Japanese space agency's SELENE mission to the Moon are revealing details about why the lopsided lump of rock orbiting Earth is so unbalanced.
The SELENE (Selenological and Engineering Explorer, or Kaguya) mission was launched in September 2007 to gather detailed geological information about the Moon. The results are published in Science1,2,3,4.
Because the Moon has no atmosphere or weather to speak of, its geology has remained almost unchanged since it formed. So unpicking its structure could offer information about how the early Solar System — including Earth — developed. But the Moon has some unusual traits that have so far proved tricky to study: its gravity and the thickness of its crust vary from the near side that faces Earth to the far side.
Gravity from afar
The Moon spins on its axis once per Earth orbit, so the same side always faces Earth. To get information from the far side of the Moon relayed to Earth is difficult, because the Moon itself blocks the line of sight back to Earth. To get round this problem, SELENE has one satellite close to the Moon to collect data, and a companion sub-satellite in a much higher orbit to relay that information back to Earth.
A team led by Noriyuki Namiki from Kyushu University in Fukuoka, Japan, measured the Moon's variable gravity, in particular around impact craters on the far side. As the gravity changes, the main satellite is drawn closer or pushed farther away from the Moon. This in turn affects the frequency of the signal sent from the satellite to the sub-satellite.
Impact crater basins on the near side of the Moon, says Namiki, can display characteristic plateau-shaped areas of unusually high gravity ('positive anomalies') and denser rock, called mascons. "On the far side, we don't find mascon-like signatures. Instead, there are concentric rings of positive–negative–positive gravity anomalies over the basins," he says.
As the basins on the far side are not dense mascons, their regions of high gravity demand another explanation. Namiki thinks such areas have denser material just under their crust — suggesting that the mantle underneath has been lifted up and compressed. "We assume the crust-boundary is shallower [than was previously thought]," Namiki says.
This kind of mantle uplift would be seen now only if the far side of the early Moon contained a rigid outer layer (crust and mantle) to support the basin, the authors say. And this layer would only stay rigid if the far side was cooler than the near side, where basins are more deformed.
"That's very exciting," says Maria Zuber, a geophysicist from the Massachusetts Institute of Technology in Cambridge, adding that the question of why the far side is cooler needs more study.
Mapping the gravity field on the far side of the Moon for the first time is the "most transformative piece of information" that the SELENE mission has provided, Zuber adds. "What they have managed to find is that there are differences between the near and far side. It underscores and quantifies the asymmetry of the Moon."
Volcanic differences
In another SELENE study, Takayuki Ono and his colleagues from Tohoku University in Sendai probed the Moon's subsurface layers using radar. "As there is no water at the surface of the Moon, radio waves can penetrate into the upper part of the Moon crust, probably up to a few kilometres," says Yasushi Yamaguchi, a member of the team.
On the near side of the Moon, the team looked at a characteristic flat, dark basaltic plain, the Mare Serenitatis, or 'sea of serenity'. Several hundred metres below the surface the group spotted a thin layer of loose debris sitting between thick basaltic lava. The debris suggests that the Moon enjoyed a 'quiet period' in terms of volcanic activity, between 3.55 billion and 2.84 billion years ago, the researchers think.
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In the 1970s the Apollo missions used a similar radar instrument and found thin layers down to a depth of kilometres in select regions. But SELENE's data did not reveal this deep layer, which Yamaguchi says may be down to the fuzzier resolution of Apollo's radar sounder.
SELENE has also taken pictures of areas with volcanic activity on the far side, and allowed these volcanoes to be dated by the number of impact craters seen there. The data suggest volcanic activity continued until 2.5 billion years ago.
Ben Bussey, a planetary scientist from the Applied Physics Laboratory at Johns Hopkins University in Laurel, Maryland, says that the topography mapping from SELENE, especially at the poles, will "be very useful in planning future lunar missions".
Zuber is principal investigator of NASA's Gravity Recovery and Interior Laboratory mission set to launch in 2011, which will map the Moon's gravity in greater detail. "We'll be able to go after fundamental questions, such as does the Moon have a solid core surrounded by liquid," she says. "This is a golden age of lunar exploration."
References
Araki, H. et al. Science 323, 897-900 (2009). | Article | ChemPort |
Namiki, N. et al. Science 323, 900-905 (2009). | Article | ChemPort |
Haruyama, J. et al. Science 323, 905-908, (2009). | Article | ChemPort |
Ono, T. et al. Science 323, 909-912 (2009). | Article | ChemPort |
News
The Moon reveals its weirder side
SELENE mission reports on gravity anomalies.
Katharine Sanderson
Gravity highs (red) and lows (blue) on the Moon (Lunar nearside right, farside left)ScienceResults from the Japanese space agency's SELENE mission to the Moon are revealing details about why the lopsided lump of rock orbiting Earth is so unbalanced.
The SELENE (Selenological and Engineering Explorer, or Kaguya) mission was launched in September 2007 to gather detailed geological information about the Moon. The results are published in Science1,2,3,4.
Because the Moon has no atmosphere or weather to speak of, its geology has remained almost unchanged since it formed. So unpicking its structure could offer information about how the early Solar System — including Earth — developed. But the Moon has some unusual traits that have so far proved tricky to study: its gravity and the thickness of its crust vary from the near side that faces Earth to the far side.
Gravity from afar
The Moon spins on its axis once per Earth orbit, so the same side always faces Earth. To get information from the far side of the Moon relayed to Earth is difficult, because the Moon itself blocks the line of sight back to Earth. To get round this problem, SELENE has one satellite close to the Moon to collect data, and a companion sub-satellite in a much higher orbit to relay that information back to Earth.
A team led by Noriyuki Namiki from Kyushu University in Fukuoka, Japan, measured the Moon's variable gravity, in particular around impact craters on the far side. As the gravity changes, the main satellite is drawn closer or pushed farther away from the Moon. This in turn affects the frequency of the signal sent from the satellite to the sub-satellite.
Impact crater basins on the near side of the Moon, says Namiki, can display characteristic plateau-shaped areas of unusually high gravity ('positive anomalies') and denser rock, called mascons. "On the far side, we don't find mascon-like signatures. Instead, there are concentric rings of positive–negative–positive gravity anomalies over the basins," he says.
As the basins on the far side are not dense mascons, their regions of high gravity demand another explanation. Namiki thinks such areas have denser material just under their crust — suggesting that the mantle underneath has been lifted up and compressed. "We assume the crust-boundary is shallower [than was previously thought]," Namiki says.
This kind of mantle uplift would be seen now only if the far side of the early Moon contained a rigid outer layer (crust and mantle) to support the basin, the authors say. And this layer would only stay rigid if the far side was cooler than the near side, where basins are more deformed.
"That's very exciting," says Maria Zuber, a geophysicist from the Massachusetts Institute of Technology in Cambridge, adding that the question of why the far side is cooler needs more study.
Mapping the gravity field on the far side of the Moon for the first time is the "most transformative piece of information" that the SELENE mission has provided, Zuber adds. "What they have managed to find is that there are differences between the near and far side. It underscores and quantifies the asymmetry of the Moon."
Volcanic differences
In another SELENE study, Takayuki Ono and his colleagues from Tohoku University in Sendai probed the Moon's subsurface layers using radar. "As there is no water at the surface of the Moon, radio waves can penetrate into the upper part of the Moon crust, probably up to a few kilometres," says Yasushi Yamaguchi, a member of the team.
On the near side of the Moon, the team looked at a characteristic flat, dark basaltic plain, the Mare Serenitatis, or 'sea of serenity'. Several hundred metres below the surface the group spotted a thin layer of loose debris sitting between thick basaltic lava. The debris suggests that the Moon enjoyed a 'quiet period' in terms of volcanic activity, between 3.55 billion and 2.84 billion years ago, the researchers think.
ADVERTISEMENT
In the 1970s the Apollo missions used a similar radar instrument and found thin layers down to a depth of kilometres in select regions. But SELENE's data did not reveal this deep layer, which Yamaguchi says may be down to the fuzzier resolution of Apollo's radar sounder.
SELENE has also taken pictures of areas with volcanic activity on the far side, and allowed these volcanoes to be dated by the number of impact craters seen there. The data suggest volcanic activity continued until 2.5 billion years ago.
Ben Bussey, a planetary scientist from the Applied Physics Laboratory at Johns Hopkins University in Laurel, Maryland, says that the topography mapping from SELENE, especially at the poles, will "be very useful in planning future lunar missions".
Zuber is principal investigator of NASA's Gravity Recovery and Interior Laboratory mission set to launch in 2011, which will map the Moon's gravity in greater detail. "We'll be able to go after fundamental questions, such as does the Moon have a solid core surrounded by liquid," she says. "This is a golden age of lunar exploration."
References
Araki, H. et al. Science 323, 897-900 (2009). | Article | ChemPort |
Namiki, N. et al. Science 323, 900-905 (2009). | Article | ChemPort |
Haruyama, J. et al. Science 323, 905-908, (2009). | Article | ChemPort |
Ono, T. et al. Science 323, 909-912 (2009). | Article | ChemPort |
Random Thoughts On Design
1. I like the randomness of the random questioning. Hope you can garnish some idea as to my perky personality. It really is amazing to find randomness so contagious. Everyone is doin' it, doin' it, pickin' their nose and chewin' it, chewin' it. What other kids songs did I sing in the school yard? Do you remember; "The worms crawl in the worms crawl out; there's one little worm that ain't so shy he goes in your nose and pops out your eye!" or "behind the iron curtain (you can tell I lived during the red scare)there was a piece of glass, Alice stepped upon it and hurt her little ass me no more questions, I'll tell you no more lies and this is the end of Alice and all her dirty, lie, lie, lies!" or do you remember this The thunder roared the lightening flashed and Janie put her tail between her legs to save her bacon! or this one; Dont grumble or grouse, all over the house or treat your missus by yawnin', you'll find it worth your while to give her a smile when gettin' up in the morning.
2. oh that was random! I was on the topic of design and got sidetracked to school yard fodder. I regress! Design templates of the designer variety. Oh yes, what style do I like, as far as interior design is concerned. Well I am really into Ikea. Yah, I like lots of book shelves and 60's prints. I am totally into the California laid back look. I dont really think I have a formal bone in my body now. I gave up that when I lost the silverware in Wawa. I mean, I don't really need to impress anybody. Thank god!
3. Yes for awhile i was into the country look, or french country provincial, and still do like fresh white daisies and wood, stone, natural surfaces, 70's style too. I like that because it reminds me of my dream to become a psychologist and I always thought all psychologists live in the 70's. Ok, I had a lava lamp, and guess what? I left it in Wawa and all kitchen stuff because; you wont believe this, but right during the move (my kid wont want me to say this) but...she sort of ran away. She didnt want to go back to civilization as we know it. It really was messed up that move and I think I left half of my stuff up in that place. I really did like Wawa. When we first got there. But headhunters came out of the woods and this wierd cult evolved from the rancours and I felt, oh my god is that bin laden or bin laden in white river? Honestly that place was really f'd up. It was so evil. Not all the ppl. It was just so controlled and that made it like this; if you were not selected to live there, you might as well run into the woods and "let the blackflies get ya" because honestly you didnt have an honest hope in hell to survive the brutal attack of not being "family". Although I thought I was in Canada, apparently not. I still miss my art portfolio left behind with the Greg Curnoe print, Fuck!jajo
2. oh that was random! I was on the topic of design and got sidetracked to school yard fodder. I regress! Design templates of the designer variety. Oh yes, what style do I like, as far as interior design is concerned. Well I am really into Ikea. Yah, I like lots of book shelves and 60's prints. I am totally into the California laid back look. I dont really think I have a formal bone in my body now. I gave up that when I lost the silverware in Wawa. I mean, I don't really need to impress anybody. Thank god!
3. Yes for awhile i was into the country look, or french country provincial, and still do like fresh white daisies and wood, stone, natural surfaces, 70's style too. I like that because it reminds me of my dream to become a psychologist and I always thought all psychologists live in the 70's. Ok, I had a lava lamp, and guess what? I left it in Wawa and all kitchen stuff because; you wont believe this, but right during the move (my kid wont want me to say this) but...she sort of ran away. She didnt want to go back to civilization as we know it. It really was messed up that move and I think I left half of my stuff up in that place. I really did like Wawa. When we first got there. But headhunters came out of the woods and this wierd cult evolved from the rancours and I felt, oh my god is that bin laden or bin laden in white river? Honestly that place was really f'd up. It was so evil. Not all the ppl. It was just so controlled and that made it like this; if you were not selected to live there, you might as well run into the woods and "let the blackflies get ya" because honestly you didnt have an honest hope in hell to survive the brutal attack of not being "family". Although I thought I was in Canada, apparently not. I still miss my art portfolio left behind with the Greg Curnoe print, Fuck!jajo
Random Things: 25 All: Not to be confused with Random Thoughts of the Inappropriate and Embarrassing Nature
25 Random Things in my life
1. 3 kids 2m 1 f, 1 hub 1 dog, 1 major 3 minor cats, 2 turtles.
2. rent house/chalet
3. pursuing ideas for ideas sake; solving stubborn problems, inventing things, organizing things, helping people by way of everyday mom sainthood, belief in the impossible as possible
4. belief the system can change with the first effort, networking, meeting. Belief I can and will change for the better
5. my favourite colour is periwinkle
6. my favourite musician of all time is moody blues or chopin or mozart or beatles or elton john or santana.
7. my favourite place is california somewhere (heck it looks beautiful) but I like the muskoka's too, and bc, west coast and east coast and some places in the middle except Ohio which is way too flat for me. I need rolling hills or I get an extreme case of agoraphobia. Visitations. The Day The Earth Stood Still. That sort of thing, parlay? Stop the monkey in the machine. What monkey? Oh the typos are not of my subconscious, but rather Dave from HAL.
8. my favourite day is wednesday I love hump days. (sic). I mean I love Fri's but they all blend now into one big TGIF. You are probably jealous of my lifestyle. I am no longer an indentured servant, but rather a dentured savant. (joke)
9. my favourite food is mashed potatoes. No it isnt. It use to be. Plus as a kid I'd only eat fat. Today I have more refined tastes. King Crab legs, in butter? Red, red wine from Tuscany where I dreamed I had the same honeymoon you did and love has to go along with the food or it just isnt edible. The Edible Man and The Edible Woman was an actual tv program in the 70's. That was WAY ahead of its time!
10. my favourite european place would be England, Ireland, France, Italy, Spain.
I also want to go to Barlow's mystic places and go to all of these places which give off "good vibes". I still feel California would do this for me, however, and I heard (via Barlow's places from Art Bell show years ago)that Mount Shasta is one of those places.
11. my favourite animal is a dog, cat fawn dog. I love the idea of having a pug, or bullbog or westie or chichuahua or pyrennes (belle and sebastian fame) a collie, belgian shepherd, any dog really. I would love them if they loved me. Cats come a close second, but I feel a dog really feels deeply and they will pine to death some dogs like the Irish wolfhound that would make me cry because they only live 7 years. It was bad enough the teddy bear hampster when he croked at 2.
12. favourite historic time; ancient greece, I would like to find a real life marble god who would wait on me and feed me grapes in Crete. Wouldnt you?
13. favourite romantic novel; definitely not Jane Austin. She was so much of a wimp of a writer, she couldnt say honestly "hey, these Edwardian men are treating me like chattel; i hate this way of life" Certainly Austin would not get any magic brownie points from Alice B. Toklias' Gertrude Stein "A rose is a rose is a rose.". I really do love the Frankenstein book by Mary Shelley, and Romantic poetry as well, John Keats in particular.
14. favourite time of day. Not noon I hate noon and must sleep during the epogee. It is keenly insulting to my well being, getting dizzy when I hang laundry at this time of day. I have recently to seista's at noon, do as the Mexicans do, and relax and enjoy my much need nappy poo. Oh ya I forgot to say my favourite time of day is dusk on a summer evening, or early morning when the sunrises. I love the sunrises and sunsets, and get more done in the morning than at night. It makes me a morning person. Yes I love walking on the beach (jogging) in the a.m. It is zen like and wonderful.
13. favourite house design. Chalet style. Viceroy. This has changed. I use to love old farmhouses. I still do love the Victorian as I get along with that style as I was a pact rat. I have found contemporary now, Feng Shui. Clearing the clutter to get on with life seems better. I still am clingy to the past. What's with that?
14. Favourite person in the world that I have known; My Mom and Dad. They are one entity as they always make decisions together which use to really bug me as a kid but which I totally respect now as there is no division of power. Dad and Mom move as a smooth stream and really have been kind even though I'll never get the gap thing down. It is like this; each have the own unique qualities which I totally appreciate. It is been life sustaining, even though I felt somewhat the less preferred black sheep of the family, I guess I deserved it.Spoiled brat baby of the family. Maybe one day I'll get my act together!
15. Favourite person not in the family; Who'd that be? Well I have a lot of angelic friends through the years that helped me. They were honest, kind, funny, sensitive, giving. You know who you are; no need to spruce the goose. You are in my friends book if you really want to know. Thanks, friend! BFF!
16. Favourite boyfriend; maybe I better be careful here. No names as above. If I dont say my current; yikes! I guess I have this dream image life and dream image boyfriend (Ken doll did not help here). I guess my longest boyfriend (no I dont mean that way, but maybe?) who really took the time to put up with me for 4 or 5 years. I guess I should have (in hindsight) tried to get him to love me more. How could I have competed with those younger babes...forget it! I need to feel needed but not needy. Very precarious balance one must learn. To all you out there on 1 1/2 hands; well you were all my favourites in your way. You still mean the world to me and I cherished the time I had with you. If you or me are ever single again, and you have matured; I'll ring ya. (that will be a blue moon, but hey we had a two blue moons in one month this past year).
17. Favourite subject in school. You mean the one I aced without trying or the one I sucked at after giving it my all? Well it would be Visual Arts my favourite, and then I was too darn good in sociology. I love physics but totally sucked and dumbed down by it, and failed Physics three times with Mr. Paterson. Mr. Paterson why did you hate me so?
18. Favourite hobby; biking. Oh I love to bike. Grab the old Fuji and go! Must be a racer. Freedom baby. I loved those days. I love other things too of course, in particular, exercise, when i can find space to do them. I have an elliptical orbitex and I can go a long time on that now if I hold my pee in.
19. Favourite actor. Of all time. In the female category I really love Bette Davis. I really love Marlon Brando. Today's stars dont have much chutzpah, although, Meryl Streep is darn good, and Liam Nelson and Gangdolf the Gray (you know who I mean).
20. Favourite dessert; Chocolate Mouse or creme brule. Although I have never tried creme brule I know I would love it because I love warm Jello butterscotch pudding you make from scratch (stove top method). Reminds me of home, that and lasagna and damn my mom is a good cook, and Mom's chicken soup, never tasted better!
21. Favourite tree; blue spruce tree. I cant believe how well they grow and they are so good for the environment. One grew over our septic tank and it was HUGE. I was hoping I could grow a few zillion redwoods (giant sequoias) here. We need to plant more trees! Birch is nice too.
22. Favourite flower of all time; red rose. Reminds me of my first love. But I do like gerbera daisies. Love daisies. And ferns, boston ferns. Love tall grasses and vegtable gardens, especially grow tomatoes well. Have problems with knowing enough about gardening but am an avid learner and love horticulture. Like to grow things that actually grow well and works with the environment. Like organic farming.
23. Favourite holiday of all time; Christmas with Easter a close second. Love to make these holidays extend into a very long life long holiday.
24. Favourite tv program; Lost. Love Lost. It is so keen. And now I like Miss Dorset. (Just saw it last evening, great British acting and imaginative plot.
25. Favourite Person In My Life: You Are! I mean that! Without you I dont exist, or dont really want to! You are Love! Fantastic, eh?
1. 3 kids 2m 1 f, 1 hub 1 dog, 1 major 3 minor cats, 2 turtles.
2. rent house/chalet
3. pursuing ideas for ideas sake; solving stubborn problems, inventing things, organizing things, helping people by way of everyday mom sainthood, belief in the impossible as possible
4. belief the system can change with the first effort, networking, meeting. Belief I can and will change for the better
5. my favourite colour is periwinkle
6. my favourite musician of all time is moody blues or chopin or mozart or beatles or elton john or santana.
7. my favourite place is california somewhere (heck it looks beautiful) but I like the muskoka's too, and bc, west coast and east coast and some places in the middle except Ohio which is way too flat for me. I need rolling hills or I get an extreme case of agoraphobia. Visitations. The Day The Earth Stood Still. That sort of thing, parlay? Stop the monkey in the machine. What monkey? Oh the typos are not of my subconscious, but rather Dave from HAL.
8. my favourite day is wednesday I love hump days. (sic). I mean I love Fri's but they all blend now into one big TGIF. You are probably jealous of my lifestyle. I am no longer an indentured servant, but rather a dentured savant. (joke)
9. my favourite food is mashed potatoes. No it isnt. It use to be. Plus as a kid I'd only eat fat. Today I have more refined tastes. King Crab legs, in butter? Red, red wine from Tuscany where I dreamed I had the same honeymoon you did and love has to go along with the food or it just isnt edible. The Edible Man and The Edible Woman was an actual tv program in the 70's. That was WAY ahead of its time!
10. my favourite european place would be England, Ireland, France, Italy, Spain.
I also want to go to Barlow's mystic places and go to all of these places which give off "good vibes". I still feel California would do this for me, however, and I heard (via Barlow's places from Art Bell show years ago)that Mount Shasta is one of those places.
11. my favourite animal is a dog, cat fawn dog. I love the idea of having a pug, or bullbog or westie or chichuahua or pyrennes (belle and sebastian fame) a collie, belgian shepherd, any dog really. I would love them if they loved me. Cats come a close second, but I feel a dog really feels deeply and they will pine to death some dogs like the Irish wolfhound that would make me cry because they only live 7 years. It was bad enough the teddy bear hampster when he croked at 2.
12. favourite historic time; ancient greece, I would like to find a real life marble god who would wait on me and feed me grapes in Crete. Wouldnt you?
13. favourite romantic novel; definitely not Jane Austin. She was so much of a wimp of a writer, she couldnt say honestly "hey, these Edwardian men are treating me like chattel; i hate this way of life" Certainly Austin would not get any magic brownie points from Alice B. Toklias' Gertrude Stein "A rose is a rose is a rose.". I really do love the Frankenstein book by Mary Shelley, and Romantic poetry as well, John Keats in particular.
14. favourite time of day. Not noon I hate noon and must sleep during the epogee. It is keenly insulting to my well being, getting dizzy when I hang laundry at this time of day. I have recently to seista's at noon, do as the Mexicans do, and relax and enjoy my much need nappy poo. Oh ya I forgot to say my favourite time of day is dusk on a summer evening, or early morning when the sunrises. I love the sunrises and sunsets, and get more done in the morning than at night. It makes me a morning person. Yes I love walking on the beach (jogging) in the a.m. It is zen like and wonderful.
13. favourite house design. Chalet style. Viceroy. This has changed. I use to love old farmhouses. I still do love the Victorian as I get along with that style as I was a pact rat. I have found contemporary now, Feng Shui. Clearing the clutter to get on with life seems better. I still am clingy to the past. What's with that?
14. Favourite person in the world that I have known; My Mom and Dad. They are one entity as they always make decisions together which use to really bug me as a kid but which I totally respect now as there is no division of power. Dad and Mom move as a smooth stream and really have been kind even though I'll never get the gap thing down. It is like this; each have the own unique qualities which I totally appreciate. It is been life sustaining, even though I felt somewhat the less preferred black sheep of the family, I guess I deserved it.Spoiled brat baby of the family. Maybe one day I'll get my act together!
15. Favourite person not in the family; Who'd that be? Well I have a lot of angelic friends through the years that helped me. They were honest, kind, funny, sensitive, giving. You know who you are; no need to spruce the goose. You are in my friends book if you really want to know. Thanks, friend! BFF!
16. Favourite boyfriend; maybe I better be careful here. No names as above. If I dont say my current; yikes! I guess I have this dream image life and dream image boyfriend (Ken doll did not help here). I guess my longest boyfriend (no I dont mean that way, but maybe?) who really took the time to put up with me for 4 or 5 years. I guess I should have (in hindsight) tried to get him to love me more. How could I have competed with those younger babes...forget it! I need to feel needed but not needy. Very precarious balance one must learn. To all you out there on 1 1/2 hands; well you were all my favourites in your way. You still mean the world to me and I cherished the time I had with you. If you or me are ever single again, and you have matured; I'll ring ya. (that will be a blue moon, but hey we had a two blue moons in one month this past year).
17. Favourite subject in school. You mean the one I aced without trying or the one I sucked at after giving it my all? Well it would be Visual Arts my favourite, and then I was too darn good in sociology. I love physics but totally sucked and dumbed down by it, and failed Physics three times with Mr. Paterson. Mr. Paterson why did you hate me so?
18. Favourite hobby; biking. Oh I love to bike. Grab the old Fuji and go! Must be a racer. Freedom baby. I loved those days. I love other things too of course, in particular, exercise, when i can find space to do them. I have an elliptical orbitex and I can go a long time on that now if I hold my pee in.
19. Favourite actor. Of all time. In the female category I really love Bette Davis. I really love Marlon Brando. Today's stars dont have much chutzpah, although, Meryl Streep is darn good, and Liam Nelson and Gangdolf the Gray (you know who I mean).
20. Favourite dessert; Chocolate Mouse or creme brule. Although I have never tried creme brule I know I would love it because I love warm Jello butterscotch pudding you make from scratch (stove top method). Reminds me of home, that and lasagna and damn my mom is a good cook, and Mom's chicken soup, never tasted better!
21. Favourite tree; blue spruce tree. I cant believe how well they grow and they are so good for the environment. One grew over our septic tank and it was HUGE. I was hoping I could grow a few zillion redwoods (giant sequoias) here. We need to plant more trees! Birch is nice too.
22. Favourite flower of all time; red rose. Reminds me of my first love. But I do like gerbera daisies. Love daisies. And ferns, boston ferns. Love tall grasses and vegtable gardens, especially grow tomatoes well. Have problems with knowing enough about gardening but am an avid learner and love horticulture. Like to grow things that actually grow well and works with the environment. Like organic farming.
23. Favourite holiday of all time; Christmas with Easter a close second. Love to make these holidays extend into a very long life long holiday.
24. Favourite tv program; Lost. Love Lost. It is so keen. And now I like Miss Dorset. (Just saw it last evening, great British acting and imaginative plot.
25. Favourite Person In My Life: You Are! I mean that! Without you I dont exist, or dont really want to! You are Love! Fantastic, eh?
The Number 7 of Randomness, Irreverent to Reverends and as usual, totally Inappropriate
7. Did I forget the number seven? Lucky number 7? Black Cat gum! No way! Hey, you know it, you know it, you got it, you got it. Give it to me, give it to me. Before you start beginning to think I am now writing romance novels, well, I am. Just have a hard time doing it. Pardon the pun. Seven truly is the joie de vivre number. Although I am plagued with 8's in my numerological birth pattern, I do know that 7 is heaven and I'd rather have heaven than eternity. No wonder we dont get along, I really am too random for a scientist. Although I do appreciate the random generation of numbers could conceivably be the reboot scientists need to appropriate keen scientific eureka moments. Sure you have had lots of those since I left you. You were an artist still are in your concise precision and you are so gifted. I appreciate that, as I always have. Science is king, and I am queen. Or is it the other way around? Really, what has you life been like since the early 80's? I often wondered. I dont know how "all let go" and "I let go of the one thing that would save me (as if I need saving, although I am told this constantly). Sure I have acceptance, now. In myself. You would appreciate this fine tuning. I am sure it is, and has been, (god i feel like a hasbro hasbeen). Seriously, I'd like to reconnect, but you know I dont know if you'd like that. I may harm you again because I want to smother you in love your cheeks are that fat. No I dont know, what happens when I love to much. It may mean...ok here is Apollo, dont eat him. Let him enjoy his desserts and move on. YOu cant possible hold onto a pocket god or goddess. It isnt possible. Those golden birds that hit your window and are a sign from God really do belong in another reality, maybe not one you can control or own. I guess that's it. I wanted to own you, possess you, keep you forever my pocketman. You know who you are, you are all that, you really are, and were the centre of my Youniverse. As you know. Today, I appreciate my separate divinity and really respect that. Then I merged things too much. Now I see the divisions and try to respect these and give the individual artist space. Space being within and without. Just let's get together sometime soon, I just won't drown you this time! Seven Heaven you were and are, always, amd forever more! jajo
The final 25 Irreverant, Inappropriate and Too Random (7 to follow, I forgot 7)
25. The number twenty-five conjures up in me random thoughts such as; being married for 25 years. Although I am married spiritually for 27 years, I must say it is not in the tradional way my little girl Jane wanted. It is a compromise. I didnt grab that brass rail (thank-god) I remember that was a VERY tacky bar in London, skanky. I have never been there thank goodness. To this date I read from the LFpress all kinds of news reports about obscene behaviour there. East ender. It was a place to avoid. Accept for my musician cum husband by proxy (I will tell you what that means later). Leonard Long did play the east end circuit. He did play the local cable tv music which played over and over again until you could sing Proud Mary backwards. I guess I wanted to attach to the music. I jump never realized musicians should never be married because they are competitive, egocentric, albeit, and to be fair, way too spiritually inclined to ever touch the earth. Marriage by proxy sounds so romantic for me it is not. I wanted more than anything to be married all my life. I wanted that "White Wedding" (not the kind Billy Idol extols). I wanted commitment because I wanted divine love to last forever. I wanted to be one on one (mono et mono) with my hub. I wanted all of it. I wanted it now (then). What happened? Well, I lived with a musician in a cheap Westmount flat. Ok the Emerald Towers (sounds so Arthurian fantasy; it wasnt). Although it was a far cry from my life in the Cantebury Towers where my musician prince rescued me, or actually let me have the feel for my own pad. And then I got pregnant. So what to do? The parents hated my musician boyfriend as most of my boyfriends. Why? Catholic guilt. I dont know. NOt appropriate for Jane. Who cares. At 25 I settled down to the life I wanted. So the dream...of the white picket fence actually did come true, by proxy. We were (still are) of varient religions, he being Anglican and me being Catholic. I asked the minister to marry us. He said no. I just never questioned why no. I thought maybe I was satan or something, or not good enough for the church (whichever one, it is the same although). Nonetheless, 25 meant a huge failure for me. I just wasnt going to ever experience the joys of proper martial (martial arts?)relationship. Crack! Snap!Pop!
Not fair! Musicians are fickle (from my direct experience). They are way too sensitive and are usually extremely set in their ways. Luckily I know how to drive this "set" out of stubborn gig artist. I like to "mix" it up. Make it happen. Life in those bars, watching the hub gig away, was ok. It wasnt fun when I was called up to sing in public without notice the tune by Ian and Sylvia Tyson "Four Strong Winds" at Canada day. And then to have a nasty letter from SOCAN because of royalty rights. Hey! It was volunteer SOCAN! It was pro bono, free, free, free. (as I am afraid most of my life has been as a latent hippy). So nonetheless; musicians if they dont play music ARE NO LONGER HUMAN. It has been this blight that has lasted years. I must put a guitar in my hubs hands or I know what is next. I personally need it too, so dont feel bad Leonard Long. Five Man Electical Band has nothing on you (and I mean nothing!). Signs, signs, everywhere are signs! There are some good times when the music biz was beginning to take off then the guys from the Latin Quarter wanted to pull a Frank on our kybossed career. It was front page news the musical miracle genius/professor from McGill. But I would never know that glory. No not at all. It was all so what? You're a professor! To me professors were always one step down from godhood. What happened to this man? He became too human with the foible of human weakness shining thruugh, which in my mind is a good thing now. Touching base being best! Gigs at the old navy bars were a riot, literally. I met my first murderer there. Please let me not hold the guitars all night whilst accosted by dregs of societial psychopathology. Nor carry 7 foot speaker columns with Rory during blaring snowstorms in Clinton. Mitchell did warm my heart, however. I take it the on the road musician lifestyle really isnt Jajo style. Although I can relate to JD Fortune's misfortunes, I realize JD just didnt have much choice. He would be born and reborn a musician. That ain't so bad! Just not what I ever thought possible, or remotely conceiveable. jajo
Not fair! Musicians are fickle (from my direct experience). They are way too sensitive and are usually extremely set in their ways. Luckily I know how to drive this "set" out of stubborn gig artist. I like to "mix" it up. Make it happen. Life in those bars, watching the hub gig away, was ok. It wasnt fun when I was called up to sing in public without notice the tune by Ian and Sylvia Tyson "Four Strong Winds" at Canada day. And then to have a nasty letter from SOCAN because of royalty rights. Hey! It was volunteer SOCAN! It was pro bono, free, free, free. (as I am afraid most of my life has been as a latent hippy). So nonetheless; musicians if they dont play music ARE NO LONGER HUMAN. It has been this blight that has lasted years. I must put a guitar in my hubs hands or I know what is next. I personally need it too, so dont feel bad Leonard Long. Five Man Electical Band has nothing on you (and I mean nothing!). Signs, signs, everywhere are signs! There are some good times when the music biz was beginning to take off then the guys from the Latin Quarter wanted to pull a Frank on our kybossed career. It was front page news the musical miracle genius/professor from McGill. But I would never know that glory. No not at all. It was all so what? You're a professor! To me professors were always one step down from godhood. What happened to this man? He became too human with the foible of human weakness shining thruugh, which in my mind is a good thing now. Touching base being best! Gigs at the old navy bars were a riot, literally. I met my first murderer there. Please let me not hold the guitars all night whilst accosted by dregs of societial psychopathology. Nor carry 7 foot speaker columns with Rory during blaring snowstorms in Clinton. Mitchell did warm my heart, however. I take it the on the road musician lifestyle really isnt Jajo style. Although I can relate to JD Fortune's misfortunes, I realize JD just didnt have much choice. He would be born and reborn a musician. That ain't so bad! Just not what I ever thought possible, or remotely conceiveable. jajo
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